The death of the ego
With the exception of My Course Story This blog is a chronicle of the gradual demise of the ego of Freyr LePage. It is a sequence of ego expressions that I find helpful/supportive now but will become useless as the ego (me) is undone.1
As I reach 45% willingness, I (the ego) see it now: I am dying. When willingness is complete, there will be no individual ‘I’ at all anymore. Freyr LePage will be happy and peaceful, but it won’t be my happiness; my peace. ‘I’ gain nothing from this process. I thought that there would be something in it for ‘me’, but now I realise there won’t. Enlightenment is not a ‘reward’ for the ego. The only purpose of the ego is to be gradually undone.
And that’s okay. As the keymaker says, it was meant to be.
This is what a trained ego looks like. It is still the ego but it knows it is wrong.
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bearing in mind that the ego itself isn’t actually undone, only the choice for the ego is undone, the ego remains what it is, a 100% thought system of hate, fear, guilt, shame, vengeance. So this post is actually just the ego being very dramatic ↩
