Forgive My Blog

ACIM on reddit - wielding power

My latest forgiveness lesson: I’ve unexpectedly been made a moderator of the ACIM group on reddit, for the express purpose of shifting the entire group’s scope from the current free-for-all of conflicting versions and interpretations, to “FIP version is the Course and anything else is not the Course” and “FACIM (i.e. Ken) is the authority on what the Course means, and anyone who disagrees will need to move aside.”

There are nearly 2000 members. There is no order of difficulty in miracles. Thanks J. I’ll just say, I’m glad you’re the one who is going to be doing all the work.

I have a renewed respect for all moderators everywhere.

I offer the words above as a gift to the Holy Spirit in our mind, to be used for the goal of Truth.


Marcy wrote:

Maybe you can utilize, in some way, some points from our posting guidelines to help structure the group with a written message similar that goes out once a month as a reminder.

I already did so, in the private conversation that led to this new situation. But yes, I could use it again in the announcement of the rule change. I’ll add that to my copious notes.

I’ve also taken inspiration from your NDUR codeword. Anything that falls outside the new scope can still be discussed, but must be tagged with [non-FACIM]. Heh, it’s kind of like how we are free to choose a lie, but we cannot make the lie true. We cannot be separate except in dreams.

The purpose or reason: {I love this part btw}

Yes I do too. That said, I’m not big on reasons. I don’t like to justify my speech and behaviour any more than I like to justify my grievances. I just say “this is what I’m doing”. People generally decide what they want and then make up reasons to justify it. I’m happy to let others do the work of finding reasons if they want reasons.

But all this is just thoughts. The important thing is to put the Holy Spirit in charge, and not interfere. This is a challenge to my habit. I want to be very thoroughly in my right mind about everything (that I can find) related to this project, and go with Him, rather than be my own teacher.

I am quite reactive still. My mind has not settled down (I mean not as settled as I feel it needs to be for this). I am as yet not quite ready. So I will wait. I will wait to calm down, then He will show me the way. (I mean, He is showing me the way - the way is to give myself time to rest, process, do nothing).

I’m feeling, deep gratitude, to you all. Again, supporting me through my forgiveness lessons.

I offer the words above as a gift to the Holy Spirit in our mind, to be used for the goal of Truth.


This post is a bit longer than usual and more story-like (a bit of “he said, I said, he said”). Sharing it all for forgiveness purposes of course.

TL;DR (that’s internet speak for “too long; didn’t read” which is sort of like saying this is a summary for people who don’t want to read the whole thing): I took the moderator who made me a mod, to the limits of his willingness. He removed my mod powers and so now I’m cheerfully free of responsibility again.

Freyr LePage wrote:

The important thing is to put the Holy Spirit in charge, and not interfere.

I am quite reactive still. My mind has not settled down (I mean not as settled as I feel it needs to be for this). I am as yet not quite ready. So I will wait. I will wait to calm down, then He will show me the way. (I mean, He is showing me the way - the way is to give myself time to rest, process, do nothing).

I went into a deep forgiveness/prayer/joining with all the other moderators, and with the whole ACIM reddit group.

As well as being uncomfortable in a position of responsibility (where the onus is on me to do or say something) and wanting to get rid of it (but correctly) as quickly as possible, I had been struggling with the idea of banning ‘bad actors’. Removing weeds from a garden is the normal thing to do. It’s what moderators are for. But on the other hand there’s this lovely Zen story:

When Bankei held his seclusion-weeks of meditation, pupils from many parts of Japan came to attend. During one of these gatherings a pupil was caught stealing. The matter was reported to Bankei with the request that the culprit be expelled. Bankei ignored the case.

Later the pupil was caught in a similar act, and again Bankei disregarded the matter. This angered the other pupils, who drew up a petition asking for the dismissal of the thief, stating that otherwise they would leave in a body.

When Bankei had read the petition he called everyone before him. “You are wise brothers,” he told them. “You know what is right and what is not right. You may go somewhere else to study if you wish, but this poor brother does not even know right from wrong. Who will teach him if I do not? I am going to keep him here even if all the rest of you leave.”

A torrent of tears cleansed the face of the brother who had stolen. All desire to steal had vanished.

In more Coursey language: banning someone, seems to remove them from the classroom. It excludes. And deprives us all of the lessons they bring. It is like cutting off a part of the Sonship and saying “no, not you”.

Of course, then there’s Arten and Pursah rightly pointing out that just because you’ve forgiven someone doesn’t mean you have to have lunch with them. And Ken saying it’s okay to have preferences and to act on them.

But being a moderator means imposing my preferences on an entire community. A community that is not even nearly ready for my level of purity.

As we all know, dilemmas are of the ego.

With the Holy Spirit:

No need to be heavy handed. I can just talk to the community without making any actual changes. I can frame the ACIM reddit group as a classroom and moderation itself as a lesson.

I need do nothing. Just being a moderator makes me part of the community and will lead to healing, even if I take no action and say no words. I don’t even need to tell anyone I’m doing this. Not the community, not the other mods, not even the one who added me.

As has been shown in previous situations, I’m most powerful as a nothing doer, especially when opposed. I am a sage, not a worldling.

I dwelt in nothing doing for a while.

Then I felt inspired to at least sit with an open post template to see if there were words to say to the community. This is what came (edited a little for context):

8 months after I left this community, I seem to have forgiven all my remaining special relationships.

So, I’m not really the same person.

I have been added as a moderator, ostensibly to turn /r/ACIM into a Well-Kept Garden in which all:

  • discussion of versions of ACIM not published by the Foundation for Inner Peace
  • interpretation of ACIM that isn’t consistent with that of the Foundation for A Course in Miracles
  • argument/debate
  • attack
  • controversy

is limited to threads tagged with [non-FACIM]


However, my real job is to choose the right mind as my adviser.

I put the Holy Spirit in charge of /r/ACIM.

I put the Holy Spirit in charge of the moderation team.

I need do nothing.

I marvelled at the brilliance of this:

  • It gives everyone something to forgive. The non-FACIM crowd get to forgive the idea of having their freedom limited. And those who might welcome such a change get to forgive me for not taking any action to implement it.

  • With such words, I am unattached to outcomes. Whatever happens will be the best thing.

  • By writing such a post in my role as a moderator they all get to look at their authority problems, whether that be special hate or special love. I am in a position of authority, but using it very differently.

I can continue with doing nothing.

No matter what happens next, no action nor explanation is required of me.

15 mins later, frrrni (the senior moderator who had approved of my proposal and added me as a moderator in order to implement it) removed the above post and my moderator powers. He also sent me an apologetic message about getting “cold feet”.

I find this outcome very satisfying. And it also means I’m now free of responsibility.

But it gets even better…

In the brief interval in which my post was live, someone commented. Not being able to see the comment while logged in, I knew it must have been by someone I had previously blocked.

Sure enough it was from Beginnersmind_Eric who revealed that he’s a subscriber to this group and quoted my email from the beginning of this thread. Then he adds:

So are we supposed to just use the FIP Edition and just accept Wapnick’s interpretation of the course?

The only people who seem to have a problem with other editions and find “controversy” in them are Wapnick and Renard disciples.

And why should we just accept one’s interpretation of the course without question and discussion?

We should just make ACIM a religion and FACIM the Orthodox Church of said religion, with the FIP Edition as the King James Bible of said religion.

Golden. What a deliciously savage attack. Every clause is barbed.

Thank you, Eric, dear brother.

I offer the words above as a gift to the Holy Spirit in our mind, to be used for the goal of Truth.